Wednesday, March 31, 2004
people tt i really really really miss!!! = sharon Q,ah jiao,bee gek,xiaOhan,sandy(shan di),marni..
people tt i really really miss~ = YUTAKI!!!,jacque,minru weiren,marcus,ken
people tt i really miss=small rach.sandy(tpsu),weng fatt(darling),mervin,shirley,sophie
people tt i miss=claudia,fengz,sheryl,meng,wyn,felicia,juliana,ming ren...
i wld like to dedicate e song(miss u like crazy by moffatts to u peeps!!!)
peeps,if i didnt mention ur name here,its either i dun miss u or i bump into too often!!! hahaz..
MAD~~~tml=cappbsc quiz n medev lab test..
next week=bioinfo presentation(CRAZY!!)
next wk=bnt lab quiz(postpone)
next wk=bioinfo quiz
next wk=cappbsc lab test
next wk=cktcs assignment(hand in)
Friday, March 26, 2004
kaede,im in class now!!suppose to do my bioinfo projects but programmin juz sucks n all of us dun noe how to do!!! hahaz,mayb we shld juz flunk tis subject..(dalton goanna be disappointed wif me!)...haiz,im kinda scared now..im juz wondering if being love is a blessin...guess e cupid shot e wrong arrows!!all e guys tt r chasin me now r gettin possesive!!its really scary..weiren,save me!! hahaz,help me shoo off all e guys!!guess i gonna turn BI soon..got dragonboat tml...competition..lookin forward to it!! guess i stop here...till e next time,take care peeps!!!
Thursday, March 25, 2004
hey peeps,im back!!! hahaz,havnt been bloggin for sooo long!! yupz,juz wanna update u peeps...i joined dragon boat!! went for e oriemtation row last sat n its really fun!!! e gals there r frendly n nice n everthing juz went well!!! gotta go for my 2nd trainin todae!!super excited but claudia is not goin!! sob sob,think i will be goin alone.. ya,im over e moon now cos i juz check my mail n recieved a reply mail from yutaki!!! wowo,he is really nice!!!he said stuff like "promise me tt u will take gd care of urself,study hard" etc...WoW,tt really makes my day!!! THX yutaki!!! i miss u..
Friday, March 19, 2004
went to zouk on 17 march for e christina lookalike event...saw yutaki!!! he rockz..hahaz
e best part=yutaki was talkin to a grp of 'kids' n i walk over and tap him. he turned ard n he is like "HI!!!".den we huged n e surroundin ppl r like starin..hahaz..den surprising he took a camera frm his bag n ask weiren to take a photo of me n him!!!so happy! den he saked if weiren is my boyfriend..im like NOOO!,he have a galfrend le..hahaz..im glad tt he stil rem me n e times we had!im over e moon!! oh ya,i juz bought e teenage mag n yutaki actuaaly mentioned my poem!!!
QUOTES:
" qn:Channel 5 just organised the Light Years Dream Date contest,right?Hows everything?"
he answered:" im really looking forward to it and anticipating it. There are three participants and all of them are very nice n sweet gals but there can only be one dream date,and this girl wrote two poems. I was really very touched."
"qn:Any lines from those two peoms,then?"
"he ans:"Something like,"i love you,Shingo.You stole my heart the first time i saw you.."
And the second one was something like,"i hope i'm a fairy and can take away all your nightmares....very, very sweet!"
hahaz,cant believe that he actually remebered what i wrote!!so happy!!! juz hope tt me n him can stay in contact n remain as gd frends!!
god bless...
Monday, March 15, 2004
hey peeps,things r getting better for me..im beginnin to see the sunshine again..thx for all ur concern!!! yupz,i will be headin down to zouk this wed wif my twin sis..hahaz..main aim=see yutaki.i miss him!!! anyway,project sucks!!esp medev,cant even find any stuff on net..yucks. oh ya,went to embassy yest for lionel's performance...kinda cool..yupz... k la,nothin much...juz wanna say tt i love u peeps!!
Friday, March 12, 2004
> IF I KNEW
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> That I'd see you fall asleep,
> I would tuck you in more tightly
> and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> that I see you walk out the door,
> I would give you a hug and kiss
> and call you back for one more.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
> I would video tape each action and word,
> so I could play them back day after day.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time,
> I could spare an extra minute
> to stop and say "I love you,"
> instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
>
> If I knew it would be the last time
> I would be there to share your day,
> Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
> so I can let just this one slip away.
>
> For surely there's always tomorrow
> to make up for an oversight,
> and we always get a second chance
> to make everything just right.
>
> There will always be another day
> to say "I love you,"
> And certainly there's another chance
> to say our "Anything I can do?"
>
> But just in case I might be wrong,
> and today is all I get,
> I'd like to say how much I love you
> and I hope we never forget...............................
>
> Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
> young or old alike,
> And today may be the last chance
> you get to hold your loved one tight.
>
> So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
> why not do it today?
> For if tomorrow never comes,
> you'll surely regret the day,
>
> That you didn't take that extra time
> for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
> and you were too busy to grant someone,
> what turned out to be their one last wish.
>
> So hold your loved ones close today,
> and whisper in their ear,
> Tell them how much you love them
> and that you'll always hold them dear
>
> Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
> "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
> And if tomorrow never comes,
> you'll have no regrets about today.
>
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
depresed,sad,angry,frustrated,hurt.
wat more can i say.
fuck M1 for cancelling my line.my day is bad enough.sucks,sucks to e core.fucking hell,cant believe it,terminating my line at e most crucial moment.FUCK U,DAMN IT.
been thinkin alot,finally realised tt i cant commit cos he reminds me of tt fuckin bastard.
im afraid,afraid to get hurt again.
the teeth marks on my hand explains it all.i need to feel e pain,sometimes e blood to get back to reality.
my hands are swollen now,it hurts,but who e hell cares?
fuck e bastard who says i wan attention.go to hell man.get out of my life,back off,i dun need u.
i dun wanna sink any deeper.e tears tt im holding back are juz to much for me to bear.
axes,pls share my burden.this load is drowning me.
axes,kill me.
go to hell,e creator of tis world,or shld i say,go to hell,jessica.
Monday, March 08, 2004
Sometimes i wonder if knowing u is a blessing in disguise,
for u r one of the few guys that really humour me.
i have been thinkin alot these days and i began to wonder who exactly am i to you?
Do i hold a position in ur heart,
or am i juz another gal for u to ditch ard...
This issue had been bothering me alot,
so much tt my head hurts.
im some1 who cant commit,
for fear of rejection is too much for me to bear.
juz wanna say thanx for e memorable times tt we had,
for those memories wil always have a special place in my heart.
Friday, March 05, 2004
im daydreamin again,thinkin of u.
i cant believe tt im doing this,feeling this.
this feelin is killing me,its getting so strong,its engulfing me.
i really miss u,miss u so much tt im losing my head.
im not axes anymore.
im losing it.i cant believe tt im so dependent on ur voice to get on wif life everyday.
"face it axes,get a life!"a voice inside my head is screamin at me!its yelling soo loudly tt my head is burstin..
i noe its over,all over..but i juz cant bear to let go,in fact,i dun wanna let go..im clingin onto watever little hope tt i have now..
im waiting,juz waitin...
god,give me some hope,
i noe tt i have u to hold on to..
e beam of light is fading off..
e world is drifting into darkness again..
i wonder when will i see e sunshine again...
